Estate Records (Excerpt from my memoir #15)

I could feel my face turning red in embarrassment.  I didn’t know what to say and felt awkward.  I looked at him to see how angry he was with me.  He laughed and said he thought it was funny.  I remembered where we had seen each other before now.  I told him I remembered him coming into the doctor’s office where I worked with Kurt.  After taking a sip of beer from the bottle in his hand he excitedly told me about a new album they had coming out called Nevermind.  We continued talking for a while and then I returned to my friends.


Looking around my living room I decided I was tired of everything.  I began placing items in boxes.  I did not know where I would move to, but I knew I needed to move.  I called my friend Rhonda in San Francisco who said I could stay with her for a while.  After all of my belongings were packed and put in storage, I boarded a train for California.

Rhonda lived in the Western Addition a couple of blocks from Haight Street.  Her flat she shared with two other friends was in an old Victorian house in the middle of the block.  I loved the location as I could walk to Golden Gate Park, Haight Street and the Castro.  I began looking for work, with no luck.  I was either over qualified or under qualified.  Each and every day I got up and spent the entire day looking for work.  My money was running out and I did not know what I would do.  I had never had trouble finding work before.  i looked in the paper, I went to employment agencies and I walked around inquiring at shops.  One morning the stress got to me.  I decided I was not going out that day.  I was depressed and had no one who could help me.  I spent the morning wallowing in self pity.  In the middle of my tragic morning there was a knock at the door.  Wiping the tears off my cheeks I got up and went to answer the door.  I opened the door and my friend Charlie from Seattle was standing there.


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I am a freelance writer and artist living in southern California.

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